"Most of the time, our past patterns point us to some deficits or injuries in our own character makeup. These deficits don't go away unless we enter the process of personal growth."
by don't repeat the past from boundaries :D
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
just because
just because i feel like it, it ain't mean i desire it
just because i have to, it ain't what i need
just because i don't like it, it ain't not because i hate it
just because i like it, it ain't because i love it
just because im lost, it ain't i have no option
just because it's good for me, it ain't the best for me
and it is just because...
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
songkoto kutputo turokanda
Learn something new in Korean Language
"songkoto kutputo turokanda" it means you have to start from the bottom to climb the ladder
and just moments ago, It just came out of my head from no where...
"when having many mistakes after the other, one can't mature unless one are faithfully experience everything one can experience when one is still at the beginning, the important thing is not that you've made a mistake but acknowledge your mistake and summon the courage to make things right... and through this mistakes, we will not fall and stumble."
written a so-called book
You know I always wanted to write a book, and I finally got to! It's pretty cool! I finally finished the dissertation worth of 5500 words. The end result was exciting really, coz one the requirements are having it hardbound. So it kinda feels like a real book.. Now that I know what to do with the knowledge of writing a book, maybe I'll write a real book one day. One funny moment was the book cover, I designed it the other way around.. as in my back cover became my front cover.. how dumb can I be? can call that the "blonde moment".. Thanks to Ashley who noticed the error, and thankfully Jonathan has a good heart, he brought me back to the printing shop again.. A big *HUG* to both of you.. oh! here's a glimpse of my final work.. :D
Saturday, January 23, 2010
free ticket
Today's briefing was a long one. My 1st sem has just ended on Thursday and today, TGIF is the beginning of final semester. Wow huh? I had a good rest in between days, just finished watching coffee prince, yes finally gotten to watch the outdated drama. LoL.
Anyways, just found out today we had to change groupings. Pretty awesome deal I got.
- 1. I'm now under 3 mentors, Mr Fatkul (pardon my spelling), Mr Leong and Ms Huwi Huwi.
- 2. I may proceed to the next level.
- 3. I got 4 months to go.
Im pretty relieved. Thank God for answering my prayers. Just few more months left.
So CNY is around the corner. Ang Paus time :D and another feasting celebration. My mom called today, she sounded super excited coz she has an extra free ticket to Sabah. She asked me to accompany her, but i rejected the offer. Not such a thrill for me at the moment, thoughts of me climbing hills just made me stop there. I really do want to travel, but just not right now. You might be thinking, wth? it's free!! Yup I know, but maybe next time. I miss home too much right now, not in the mood to go anywhere else. Even if it means staying home all day and not go out, what? it's still home sweet home.. :)
Got once, I was pretty disappointed with the free ticket to Tokyo! T.T... and I really wanted to go and they canceled the game.. @%^$&*!!! But still I'm pretty grateful, I had a good trip to Seoul, Korea.. So it wasn't that bad after all. It's cool to have offers to travel around. If this is my job, it would be the best job in the world, just to get paid to go there for a free trip? LoL. Well first things first, finish the 4 months here in KBU... till then....
Friday, January 22, 2010
the new beginning
Have you ever wondered how every year what it will be like? I didn't really expect much of what is to happen but rather I want change. Change not in situations but rather on myself. Emptying my cup of past and pouring new wine in my new shiny glass.
I am really fed up of the things undone, hanging and stuck. So where do i begin, well myself of course. It's not one of those resolutions, but rather a conviction, an initiative to be responsible. Setting things straight and rightful before God. Knowing that and thank God for His wonderful grace that has led me to an open door for changes be made. To discover more and more of Him and me. What a better way to celebrate my new year. I came to realised there are so much blessings my family has provided for. So I believe that blessings will be an added advantage of my growth in my life. It is an added value. The value of who I am and shaping me to be more of Him.
So believe when I say don't give up, keep knocking on the doors. Don't give up hope, faith and be discouraged where and whenever you are. Because I believe everything happens for a reason. You are not a mistake. You are a value and the apple of God's eyes.
Blessed 2010 peeps, Cheers~
Lots of Love,
Janice
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
u and me. it's over!!!
it's over. U and me. it's over.
yes you've got me right...
You and me, it's over!!
getting it right on track. it's absolutely over. no more late nights. no more drama. no more emotions overwrite. no more ache. no more staying up with u. no more crushing me. =P
moving on is what I need. can't wait for this coming Friday so i can have some peace of mind. oh i know, you will leave a trail for me in the holidays hovering over me like a 10 tonnes of concrete weighing on me. but i will get over u and be done with. im so right on track, i know it because i can taste the freedom. it's getting very very close. i promise i wont miss you. you are not my food. you are not my drink. you are not my support. you are not my love. it may be a long process to get over u. but i can live with that in a short term. no worries.
you my dear, assignments. goodbye.
holidays. Hello... are w.e.l.c.o.m.e.!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
mingle lingle
it's 5.23 a.m. staring blankly at the screen. blurr. sleepy. bored. another nightful, loadful and handful of work mingling around for me to finish.
i just need a break.
silence. stillness. i love the cool breeze in the morning, taste the fresh air.. mmmm.. i work better this way. im a night owl. yay tomorrow is the last day! looking forward to home.
after the great long summer break, it's still not enough. year 3 is a bit of a drag for my countdown to freedom. though i will miss my student life but im not regretting it, im very looking forward to what's ahead of me. im not a study type material, mmm not my cup of tea. im not excited or bothered or hate or love my assignments. just not my thing. diploma or no diploma. degree or no degree. it doesn't make any difference to me. i know it's not clear to where im heading but just looking forward is something hopeful for me. im just stalling of what's ahead of me. taking on my own sweet pace. bah.
wandering what's ahead of me. unbelievable scary, not!
i went singapore 2 weeks ago. a lot has change since 2000 =) .. is still very very clean, expensive no doubt about that. advance and fast. i love the transportation system. makes it easier for those who does not own a car. always a walking distance. fully air-condition. even in an open space, it's still air-condition. wow. gasp. they are having their own version of las vegas soon near the marina barrage. did not shop. just walk and walk till my knee gave way. LOL.
it's now 6am.. wow took me 30 minutes to slowly breathe out my words on screen. kheng! im a snail, tortoise and a camel. =P so ya i need to get back to my work.
urgh.
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